Sunday, September 6, 2009

Dah Kerja ^_^

Alhamdulillah, D dah dapat kerja ~_^ thanks to all yang bagi support selama. Actually dah nak dekat 3 bulan dah D kerja as HR Junior Officer dekat recruitment company kat Subang. Not actually my field, tapi bolehlah. I had fun ~_^. My officemates pun semua ok. My contract dah nak habis actually on September 11, tapi most probably will extend.

I've learnt a lot. Mula-mula masuk keje tu nervous gak. Tak tahu apa benda pun recruitment tu. Paling tak suka bila kena call orang. Huhu. Tapi lama-lama oklah. Kat sana buat keje macam-macam. Since I have some experience handling programs before, I was given the task to do sort of Motivation Trainings for the factory workers. Travel sampai Bangi tu nak buat training. Hehe.

Banyak juga suka-duka walaupun baru 3 bulan. Macam-macam orang dah jumpa. Start kerja ni jugak D belajar the value of money. Kalau tak selama ni menadah kat mak bapak je, senang-senang dapat. Hehehe.

D dapat tau ramai gak kawan-kawan lain yang dah kerja. I wish u all the best and may you'll eventually pursue the career of your dream ~_^. Untuk kawan-kawan lain yang belum dapat kerja pula, don't lose hope. God is Almighty. He surely have big plans for you guys. ^_^.

Hopefully we can all meet again someday. Buatlah reunion!! Rindu bangat! Hehe..

~Lots of Love to everyone~

Friday, May 29, 2009

What To Do?

It has just been 2 days since I've done nothing else but surfing the net and look for jobs. I was so engrossed with it that I wasn't aware of the time. I'm not sure if I'm being paranoid, but I'm starting to worry if I don't get any jobs soon. I'll feel like a total loser.
Initially, I wanted to further my studies and take my Masters. I've been trying to do so since early Internship but my work always gets in the way. Alas, I missed most of the deadlines for this year's intake for the IPTAs. I was mad at myself for not grabing the chance at the right time. It took me a few hours to recover from that frustration. I hope to find some other places, maybe oversea. But for the mean time, it's so obvious I need a job to fill my time.
My anxiousness doesn't end there. Some of my classmates already got a job right after we finish our Internship. Others are catching up. Yes, people would say "everyone will get their chance, it's just a matter of time". Time. Such a word that sends a chill up my spine. >_<
Until now, I've went to the jobfair, send resumes, search online, went for interviews (almost, but we were rejected because we haven't received our transcript) and even applied for temporary teacher. And it'll probably be my main activity for the mean time.
Honestly, I've never worked before except for my Intership in Klang Hospital. So all this extra time I have at the moment really bugs. If there's any sugestions, comments and information regarding this dilemma I'm having, I would really, really appreciate it.
Thanks :)

Thursday, May 28, 2009


Love is such a strange feeling..

At times it makes a person feels like walking through the clouds. At other times, it could hurt so much like a stab straight into your heart. No matter how hurtful love can be when two souls are apart, they'll still hold on to it. With hopes that one day, they'll reunite again, as one.

That's how I felt all this while. A feeling I've anticipated long before we have to seperate, geographically. It gets even tougher when we are miles apart now. No more having breakfast together, seeing each others faces, going to movies, going to classes together.. all routines halted, and we have to realign our lives to a long distance relationship.

It was terrible at first. I hated to be so far away from him. But there's nothing I could do about it. As time pass, I regain my strength. Part of it is because I had my Internship, and another part of it is because he had helped me along the way as well. He came down to KL twice, once was a week after I came back here, and another one was in February, on my birthday. God knows how happy I was to see him. ^_^

So this time, after we've finished our Internship, it's suppose to be my turn to go Kuching.. But, things didn't work out the we planned. I couldn't go due to some circumstances. It was really hard, both for him and me. I just have to accept that I'll only be seeing him in August, during my convocation, adding another 3 months to see my beloved Boo.. I was so sad.. I felt even more terrible that I could not keep to my words..

When I thought that I just have to bear with in and be patience, my dearest Boo took the initiative. Since I couldn't go, he'll come to see me, in KL. I WAS SO HAPPY!! ^_^ He was so sweet!! Although it would cost him a lot, he put that aside. As long as we could meet, that's all that matters.. I really really appreciate it..

We had a wonderful holiday together, from 23rd till 26th May. Though it was short, it was the sweetest moments that I had with him. We made a point to cherish each waking moments we had together. It was really wonderful. I felt complete to have him by my side ~_^

I dreaded seperation. I was really bad at goodbyes. But somehow, this time, it was not as hard as how it use to be. I think I had mature a bit, and I had to thank him as well for making this long-distance relationship such a positive thing for us. Thank you Sham ~_^

I'm looking forward to see him again, insyaAllah in another 3 months time..
To my dearest boo, I will always love you and miss you so much.. (^.^)

Tamek windu n cayang kitak besha gilak!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Another World

It's been a long time since I've read anything that's small and thick..
I love to read, but I didn't make reading novels or fictions as a habit these few years.
Too much other 'important' things to read.
And when I'm so exhausted of reading for studies, I shift to magazines.
I'm not a bookworm per se.
I just enjoyed collecting knowledge from reading.
Sadly, I hadn't widen my horizon to read autobiographies, novels or anything fictional for the past few years.
But my trip to the International Book Fair last Sunday changed my days.
It was my first time there.
My eyes landed on a couple of novels that I've been eyeing for so long.
I've never bought novels for myself.
I borrowed most of the time.
But this time, I felt the urge to buy them.
It's 30% off anyway, so it's a good deal ~_^
When I started reading,
I realized how much I've missed this world.
The imaginative world that I've left all this years to be replaced by movies and soap dramas.
I do love movies, no doubt. But there's something about reading that brings you even beyond what movies can provide.
It let's your imagination runs wild and brings you to another world
that you wouldn't have dream of.
It also leaves a trail of emotion so captivating
that you'll even flip the pages again to embrace the emotion..
And for me, it's a method of escapism from the real world.
An escape route short enough to bring back life into me
and made my day even more meaningful..
It was truely worth it ~_^

Lifetime Experience

Time flies so fast.. It's only a mere of days left to finish up my Intership..
I felt relieved I've gone through supervision smoothly..
I'm happy I've survived that nerve-wrecking phase.

But it was indeed very precious and quite sentimental to me..
Because, it'll be the last time for Mama to supervise me..
After that, I'll be on my own.
No one to tell what's right or what's wrong.
What's the best action or what to avoid.
It's to up me, my experience and the knowledge from my lecturers that will guide me..
Kinda scary to think that I'll be on my own..
But I have to grow and I have to move on..

When I think back about it, Internship had really taught me a lot.
Whatever I've learnt all these years started to make sense..
Now I know the value of experience..
How precious it is that it could make a person grow so much in a mere 4 months.

I'm going to miss this phase of my life..
And I thank all the people around me in this period of time for giving me a lifetime experience that I'll never forget.
Thank you so much ~_^

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


Yeay yeay dah habis kena supervise oleh mama!! ~_^
Best Best Best!!

Tak tahulah macam mana nak explain rasa best ni. Rasa lega sangat.
Semuanya berjalan dengan baik selama 2 hari walaupun ada masalah sedikit tentang ahli kelompok. Mama ada point out kekurangan tapi biasalah, kita takkan jadi perfect.
And I was happy that mama did point it out. At least I know where I should improve.
Thanks MAMA ~_^

Kata-kata Mama sangat memberi semangat kepada saya.
Saya tau Mama dah tak garang sangat lagi sekarang (dia garang dalam kelas je..hehehe),
tapi rasa nervous tu nak tunggu dia datang..
Pergh! Boleh tahan gak. >_<

I think I'm expecting too much from myself.. Takut sangat nak buat salah..
Bak kata Mama "So What?"
Betul gak. So what kalau kita buat salah? Bukannya kita kena hukum gantung pun kan?
Kita buat salah, lepas tu kita dapat belajar dari kesilapan kita.
Kita dapat pengalaman baru.

So, moral of the story, Don't be afraid to do mistakes
and Don't beat yourself up when you did.
It happens.
So appreciate it and and you'll learn a lot from yourself.. ~_^

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Sebulan Sahaja Lagi..

Hi all!!

Saya dapat permintaan daripada seseorang untuk tulis blog dalam bahasa melayu.. Jadi, blog ni saya tujukan khas untuk orang tersebut... ^_^

Sepanjang internship ni, saya dah jumpa ramai sangat orang yang kata jam kredit student unimas ni sangat banyak. Banyak sangat kerja yang kami kena buat. Sampai ada yang kata sibuk kami mengalahkan YB.. tapi, Tak kisahlah.. Memang tak dinafikan kesibukan kami macam tak ada hujung pangkalnya.. But it's a really good training. Yang paling best bila ada orang puji student counseling unimas ni serba boleh ^_^.. Alhamdulillah..

Tapi, personally, saya berpuas hati dengan sistem jabatan kaunseling unimas. Internship ni betul-betul mengajar saya untuk lebih bersedia menghadapi dunia sebenar. Saya tahu masih banyak kelemahan yang perlu saya atasi. but I'll always try my best..

Untuk kawan-kawan semua, ALL THE BEST!!!
Sebulan je lagi tinggal.. Jangan kita sia-siakan peluang yang kita ada ni untuk menimba seberapa banyak ilmu yang kita boleh.. Dah kerja nanti, lecturer & supervisor kita dah takde nak tegur dan bagi tunjuk ajar kat lagi..

Akhir kata, hargailah setiap teguran, setiap kritikan dan setiap pujian yang kita terima daripada sesiapa pun..
Yang positif sematkan dalam akal dan hati,
Yang negatif fikir-fikirkan dan jadikan panduan,
Yang terlalu negatif atau tak relevan, buang je dalam tong sampah.. hehehe..

Ciao ~_^

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

So cute!

I just couldn't resist. They're so cute! My boo gave me the big kuma kuma. really really huggable. And now i've found d little ones too ~_^ kawaii!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


Hye y'all!!

It's already March and things aren't improving much for my Internship. Except for individual counseling, the rest are still rather slow.. It is damn stressful during the weekdays.

However, it so happens that every weekend is like a holiday to us.. Went to melaka for Ms. Azura'a wedding Mrs. Azura by now..hehehe), Went for numerology course in Selayang, stayed at my aunts condo and went swimming with cik eja.. feels like holiday. or maybe it's just us >_<

anyway, it's good to have these opportunities once in a while. knowing very well that i easily stress myself, i could probably take these 'breaks' as a motivation.

so to all my friends, do spare some time for yourself.
>have a laugh,
>get quality sleep,
>exercise (miss aida is being a very good role model ~_^)
>and always be positive..

even how bleak and pitch dark your current situation is, always remember that we control our own path and success.. if our seniors can do it, so can we. ^_^


Thursday, February 12, 2009

Shutting down

Actually, right now is not a really good time for blogging. There's loads of work to be done. But hell, I'm in the mood for it, so what I care.. hehehe..

It's been about Internship and missing my friends on and on.. and yeah, that's what my life is revolving around right now. I do miss them, but I am moving on. I'm gonna meet some of them anyway this Friday for a whole day program at SMT Shah Alam. My boo is coming down to KL on my birthday (I'm so looking forward to it ~_^). And InsyaAllah, me and my other classmates will attend a lecturers' wedding on the following day at Melaka.

So lets change the topic. Why do I consider myself a dreamer? Because I dream a lot? (duh) hehehe..

Well, I used to be a really quiet girl. I don't have sisters and I was thought to stay indoors most of the time. So most of the time, I played on my own. When i think about it, my world actually revolved around books (and TV of course). I love stories, encyclopedias, myths, fantasies and fun facts about things around me. Once, I was even called as the walking dictionary, but that's a different story. Quite a nerd huh? But try as I might, I still love books. Any books. It's a seasonal thing. Like right now, I'm really enjoying reading back all the counseling theories, Counseling strategies and stuff. But I couldn't spend the whole time reading, there's still a lot of work to be done. And that's the whole point of reading, to apply it in real life.

Okay, back to the top. Why am I a dreamer? Why don't i call myself a reader? The answer; reading to me is a source, dreaming is a manifestation of what you think and feel, consciously and unconsciously towards that source. That's one of the reason I love reading fantasies and myths. It just feeds your imagination and gives you whole new perspective about your world.

Dreamers are mostly idealistics, which is a bit of a problem when it surpasses being realistic. So the best bet is, be in balance. Be a realist when your dealing with logic, and be an idealist when you have the chance to embrace your imagination. By the end of the day, you'll might be able explore a whole new world of your own and make your life even more colourful..

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Miss your faces..


It's been a long time since i post anything here. There's so many things to tell, but so little time to spare.

So far, my Internship is going well. It's just that we're a bit behind our schedule. Hopefully we could catch up and finish this whole thing in time.

Today I feel... sad. I miss my life in Uni. I miss my friends. I miss going to class. I miss the commotion my friends make in class, like 'pasar malam'. I miss seeing their faces. I miss seeing those smiles.I miss working with them, although it could be awfully stressful at times. But when I think about it, it's the most enjoyable time I had with them.

Last week, Friday 30th January, we had a meeting for all Interns in Semenanjung. Boy I was so happy meeting them! It's just like in class. Everybody was so cheerful, sharing stories and experiences. It's like we never parted. The bond was still so tight. It could have been merrier if all of us were there, but another half is in Sarawak.

And there's also Mama (Prof Madya Zuraidah). My most respected lecturer, now our internship supervisor. She's still the same. And I'm glad she is coz I miss her 'bebel' so much.. hehehe.. She gave us a more detailed guidance about our internship. Although some might think she's very rigid and strict, to me she's just being concern and caring about her children, just like a mother. And that's why I'm so comfortable to confide her for anything (but I'm still a bit scared sometimes..hehehe).

From the outside, most of us still look the same. only a little chubbier or skinnier..hehehe.. But when we share our experiences for the past one month, it made me realize we've grown up a lot. Each and everyone of us have our own story. Each and everyone have gone through different kinds of hurdles. Which eventually made us quite a different person inside. But in the same time, there's still something that remained the same: the warmth that we have when we're together..

One day, we will all go our seperate ways. One day, our path might not cross at all. But do remember, we've all come from the same place. And that place had mould us to become who we are today. And that place had also brought us together.

I really really miss all of you.. Can't wait to see you all again..

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

~miss u much~

For my dearest boo, and for all who are in a long-distance relationship,
I dedicate this song to you..

Apa agaknya khabarmu di sana?
Di sini ku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa seksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan
Hati terasa bagai tertinggal di situ
Meskipun tubuh dah jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti tahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada
Apa yang terdaya…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Jauh sekali hidup di sini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi ku selesa di sana
Tak sabar menantikan detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu
Apa yang termampu…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Terlintas di fikiran untuk meminggirkan saja
Semua pencarian di sini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar



Now I'm already in my 3rd week of internship in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Klang. According to the plan, me and my partner Eja should have at least started our individual counseling sessions. Okay, so I did got a referral case from Hospital Supervisor, but I couldn't reach him these few days. Thus, my session is still pending till now.

From yesterday, me and Eja were distributing our counseling unit brochures and met most of the Supervisors, Sisters and Head of Departments in this hospital. Some were nice, some were ok, and there were someone who were just not really nice *sigh* I really appreciate those who aknowledge us and our work. I'm also happy to know that there are some who are eager to use our counseling service. But one incident yesterday made me stunned for a while and made my partner's mood went down the drain.

We were being our usual polite and nice self to this one person in charge. But all of the sudden she replied us very harshly and just walked away. As though the person was relly pissed off with us. I wonder what we did wrong...hurm..O_o Anyway, it's almost 5pm, I guessed that person had a rough day and we came at the wrong time.

Today when I met my supervisor and told her about what happened, she said she might know the person we're talking about. And that person wasn't really mad, it's just the way he/she is. o..k.. well, different people have different ways of treating others I guess. Hrm..

Overall, it has been quite hard for us here. we're trying our best to get clients, but it seems like it's going to take a while.. I really really REALLY hope we can go through this and finish up our internship.. :(

Monday, January 5, 2009


A lot had happened during last December. A lot of emotional roller-coasters; sadness, happiness, excitements and even grief. 3 1/2 years in Unimas had taught me many things and overtime, I've collected many memories. It was really hard to part with something you've grown so familiar with. The friendly people, the lush greenery, the studying environment, the slow-paced city (compared to KL) and of course the warm smiles of the people who are so close to my heart. I can't deny I had a very hard time to let go of these things and go back to where I belong. But somehow, deep down, I did felt belonged there. Most probably because I was so attached to my guy and his family..

Reality check, I still have to go home. There are many other things waiting for me at home. I gave myself three days to cry my eyes out and then I have to move on. Thank God I managed to control myself. Well, with a little help from someone of course. A week after i flew back to KL, my guy came spent some three days holiday with me. It was short, but it was the sweetest holiday I've ever had.

Now, I'm enjoying my stay at home. I'm so happy to be able to spend time with my mum, my dad and my brothers. I've already started my practical training as a counselor. It's a whole new environment here. A lot of work to be done too (sigh). Anyway, this the last semester and I'm going to go all out. To all my fellow counseling friends, I wish you all the best in everything you do ^_^. Toodles..