Monday, December 1, 2008

Never Say Goodbye

One week has passed by. A week since I met all my beloved classmates as a whole. A week since we last laughed and talked, and cried with each other. A week since we last hugged and kissed each other goodbye.
One whole week, since I last said ‘I Love You’ to all of them..

It’s hard to describe how I feel these days. Whenever I remember all the memories I had with them, I felt sad and lonely. I felt sad because I miss them. I miss the hysterical laughs we had in class, the laughs that we even shared with our lecturers. I miss the grueling hours we spent, cramming our brains to the never-ending list of assignments throughout the semester. I miss the times we worked together; pouring all our energies, our hearts and souls to make every program a success. I miss the quality time we spent in class, listening attentively to lectures while bargaining ourselves to the’ sleeping devils’. I miss the camps we had, where we got to know each other even closer than before. I miss the quarrels and conflicts, though painful but it had made us grow. I miss the birthday wishes we sang our hearts out whenever any one of us had another year added to his/her life. I miss the announcements yelled out almost every time after class. I miss the annual dinners, when all of the sudden, all the girls became graceful swans and the guys became such handsome princes. I miss the smiles and hellos I received no matter where and when I met them.
Above all, I miss the warm and caring atmosphere I had when we were all together. The feelings that is so special and could never be felt with anyone else.

It took quite some time for me to realize the precious gems in front of me. In my earlier years, I’ve been treasuring the gems that are far away from me. So immersed I was in my own thoughts that somehow I made a barrier for myself; a barrier that allows only certain people to enter my life. But as I grow as a counseling student, I began to appreciate people more. I began to learn more about each and every one of them. Along the way, it has been an amazing roller-coaster ride. I’ve met such amazing people. There are the talkative ones, the quiet ones, the funny ones, the serious ones, the achievers, the born leaders, the sweet ones, the strict ones, the active ones, and even the invisible ones. Though we are all different, I do believe we all share the same principle, “people are unique”. And to me, the uniqueness is what had bonded us together so well. From this bond, I’ve learned to love the valuable gems that are right in front of my eyes. And I’m glad, it was not too late for me to love these gems that I’ve been with for the past 3 ½ years.

Months ago, I’ve wished that time would past as slowly as it can. I wished that I would never have to leave this phase of my life; a phase that I can still have fun with my friends, I can still see their faces and hear their voices, a phase that I can be so comfortable with the people I meet. On the last day we had together during the Internship Camp, when we sat in a circle and disclose our feelings, I just wished that the time would pause for awhile. I wished, at least we’ll have the entire 24 hours to bid farewells and share the moment together. But of course, my wish did not come true. Half-heartedly I accepted the day as it is and made the full use of it.

Until today, sometimes I do shed tears when I remembered that moment. The moment when I get to look into each of their eyes and said I loved them so much. We may have said goodbye and we may not be able to meet each other again. But then, that’s the beauty of friendship. It could never be erased by goodbyes as it will always remains in ones heart, along with the memories that comes with it. As for me, I will never forget the precious moments I had with these wonderful friends of mine, for as long as I live.

To the entire Unimas Counseling Students batch 05/06, I wish you good luck and all the best for your Internship/ Courses. Hope to meet you all again someday. May you’ll have a wonderful and successful life ahead.

And to all my dear lecturers, thank you so much for your kindness, your patience and for all the knowledge that you have given me. Thank you so much for helping me to grow and become the person I am today. I really appreciate it.

May God Bless You All..

Friday, November 14, 2008

Something About Me..

Assalamualaikum dan hello to all.

Welcome to my blog. I'm Farah Dianti Abdul Rahizam, currently 22 years old and am still pursuing my Bachelors Degree in Counseling (Hons) in University of Malaysia Sarawak (Unimas). I'm living in Shah Alam, Selangor with my parents and two younger brothers. My dad is a marine engineer, now working as a CSR in Petronas. My mom is a travel consultant of her own travel agency, ITAERO travel. My brother, two years younger than me is now pursuing his Diploma in Mechanical Engineering. He has an ambition to become just like my dad, an engineer. My youngest brother, who is now 18, is taking up a course on catering and he dreams of becoming a chef.

I entered kindergarten since I was 4 years old in Tadika Sayangku, Shah Alam. My primary school was Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Seksyen 19, Shah Alam and I went to Sekolah Menengah Seksyen 19, Shah Alam for my secondary education until Form 3. After 12 years of studying in my hometown, I got the chance to study elsewhere. I went to Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar (Samura), Muar Johor during Form 4 and Form 5. After Form 5, I went to Kedah Matriculation College for a year. And as I’ve stated before, I’m now pursuing Counseling in UNIMAS, Sarawak. I guess I’m quite lucky to have the experience of traveling almost all around Malaysia for my studies. From west coast I went to the south, and then to the north, and now all the way across the sea to the East Malaysia.

I have a passion for Taekwondo and I’m now a 1st Dan Black Belt. I’m hoping to get my 2nd Dan soon if I could. I’m not much of a great fighter but I do love to join tournaments and kick some ass (or get my ass kicked >_<). Right now I’ve just finished my final semester in Unimas. Starting next year (which is my actual final semester in B.A. Counseling) I’ll be doing my internship nearby my hometown, in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang. I’ll no longer be a counseling student but a training counselor. It freaks me out a bit, but I’ll think I’ll manage (really hope so >_<).

Anyway, the past 3 ½ years in Unimas was great! I’ve learnt a lot and I’ve met a lot of great people. One of them is of course, my guy Hishammudin. He’s my course mate. To think about it, I didn’t really like this guy before because he likes to tease me. However, eventually, when I got to really know him better, I began accepting him and even enjoy his company a lot. He helped me to build my self esteem. He helped me to be more sociable. Whenever I’m down, he always pulls me up and be more positive. Although we are quite different from each other, we do compliment each other in many ways. It’s a unique chemistry I must say. But the bottom line is, he loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is.

I guess that’s all about me for my first entry. I’ll save the rest for later ~_^.