Thursday, February 12, 2009

Shutting down

Actually, right now is not a really good time for blogging. There's loads of work to be done. But hell, I'm in the mood for it, so what I care.. hehehe..

It's been about Internship and missing my friends on and on.. and yeah, that's what my life is revolving around right now. I do miss them, but I am moving on. I'm gonna meet some of them anyway this Friday for a whole day program at SMT Shah Alam. My boo is coming down to KL on my birthday (I'm so looking forward to it ~_^). And InsyaAllah, me and my other classmates will attend a lecturers' wedding on the following day at Melaka.

So lets change the topic. Why do I consider myself a dreamer? Because I dream a lot? (duh) hehehe..

Well, I used to be a really quiet girl. I don't have sisters and I was thought to stay indoors most of the time. So most of the time, I played on my own. When i think about it, my world actually revolved around books (and TV of course). I love stories, encyclopedias, myths, fantasies and fun facts about things around me. Once, I was even called as the walking dictionary, but that's a different story. Quite a nerd huh? But try as I might, I still love books. Any books. It's a seasonal thing. Like right now, I'm really enjoying reading back all the counseling theories, Counseling strategies and stuff. But I couldn't spend the whole time reading, there's still a lot of work to be done. And that's the whole point of reading, to apply it in real life.

Okay, back to the top. Why am I a dreamer? Why don't i call myself a reader? The answer; reading to me is a source, dreaming is a manifestation of what you think and feel, consciously and unconsciously towards that source. That's one of the reason I love reading fantasies and myths. It just feeds your imagination and gives you whole new perspective about your world.

Dreamers are mostly idealistics, which is a bit of a problem when it surpasses being realistic. So the best bet is, be in balance. Be a realist when your dealing with logic, and be an idealist when you have the chance to embrace your imagination. By the end of the day, you'll might be able explore a whole new world of your own and make your life even more colourful..

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Miss your faces..


It's been a long time since i post anything here. There's so many things to tell, but so little time to spare.

So far, my Internship is going well. It's just that we're a bit behind our schedule. Hopefully we could catch up and finish this whole thing in time.

Today I feel... sad. I miss my life in Uni. I miss my friends. I miss going to class. I miss the commotion my friends make in class, like 'pasar malam'. I miss seeing their faces. I miss seeing those smiles.I miss working with them, although it could be awfully stressful at times. But when I think about it, it's the most enjoyable time I had with them.

Last week, Friday 30th January, we had a meeting for all Interns in Semenanjung. Boy I was so happy meeting them! It's just like in class. Everybody was so cheerful, sharing stories and experiences. It's like we never parted. The bond was still so tight. It could have been merrier if all of us were there, but another half is in Sarawak.

And there's also Mama (Prof Madya Zuraidah). My most respected lecturer, now our internship supervisor. She's still the same. And I'm glad she is coz I miss her 'bebel' so much.. hehehe.. She gave us a more detailed guidance about our internship. Although some might think she's very rigid and strict, to me she's just being concern and caring about her children, just like a mother. And that's why I'm so comfortable to confide her for anything (but I'm still a bit scared sometimes..hehehe).

From the outside, most of us still look the same. only a little chubbier or skinnier..hehehe.. But when we share our experiences for the past one month, it made me realize we've grown up a lot. Each and everyone of us have our own story. Each and everyone have gone through different kinds of hurdles. Which eventually made us quite a different person inside. But in the same time, there's still something that remained the same: the warmth that we have when we're together..

One day, we will all go our seperate ways. One day, our path might not cross at all. But do remember, we've all come from the same place. And that place had mould us to become who we are today. And that place had also brought us together.

I really really miss all of you.. Can't wait to see you all again..