Tuesday, January 20, 2009

~miss u much~

For my dearest boo, and for all who are in a long-distance relationship,
I dedicate this song to you..

Apa agaknya khabarmu di sana?
Di sini ku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa seksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan
Hati terasa bagai tertinggal di situ
Meskipun tubuh dah jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti tahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada
Apa yang terdaya…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Jauh sekali hidup di sini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi ku selesa di sana
Tak sabar menantikan detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu
Apa yang termampu…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Terlintas di fikiran untuk meminggirkan saja
Semua pencarian di sini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar



Now I'm already in my 3rd week of internship in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Klang. According to the plan, me and my partner Eja should have at least started our individual counseling sessions. Okay, so I did got a referral case from Hospital Supervisor, but I couldn't reach him these few days. Thus, my session is still pending till now.

From yesterday, me and Eja were distributing our counseling unit brochures and met most of the Supervisors, Sisters and Head of Departments in this hospital. Some were nice, some were ok, and there were someone who were just not really nice *sigh* I really appreciate those who aknowledge us and our work. I'm also happy to know that there are some who are eager to use our counseling service. But one incident yesterday made me stunned for a while and made my partner's mood went down the drain.

We were being our usual polite and nice self to this one person in charge. But all of the sudden she replied us very harshly and just walked away. As though the person was relly pissed off with us. I wonder what we did wrong...hurm..O_o Anyway, it's almost 5pm, I guessed that person had a rough day and we came at the wrong time.

Today when I met my supervisor and told her about what happened, she said she might know the person we're talking about. And that person wasn't really mad, it's just the way he/she is. o..k.. well, different people have different ways of treating others I guess. Hrm..

Overall, it has been quite hard for us here. we're trying our best to get clients, but it seems like it's going to take a while.. I really really REALLY hope we can go through this and finish up our internship.. :(

Monday, January 5, 2009


A lot had happened during last December. A lot of emotional roller-coasters; sadness, happiness, excitements and even grief. 3 1/2 years in Unimas had taught me many things and overtime, I've collected many memories. It was really hard to part with something you've grown so familiar with. The friendly people, the lush greenery, the studying environment, the slow-paced city (compared to KL) and of course the warm smiles of the people who are so close to my heart. I can't deny I had a very hard time to let go of these things and go back to where I belong. But somehow, deep down, I did felt belonged there. Most probably because I was so attached to my guy and his family..

Reality check, I still have to go home. There are many other things waiting for me at home. I gave myself three days to cry my eyes out and then I have to move on. Thank God I managed to control myself. Well, with a little help from someone of course. A week after i flew back to KL, my guy came spent some three days holiday with me. It was short, but it was the sweetest holiday I've ever had.

Now, I'm enjoying my stay at home. I'm so happy to be able to spend time with my mum, my dad and my brothers. I've already started my practical training as a counselor. It's a whole new environment here. A lot of work to be done too (sigh). Anyway, this the last semester and I'm going to go all out. To all my fellow counseling friends, I wish you all the best in everything you do ^_^. Toodles..