Actually, right now is not a really good time for blogging. There's loads of work to be done. But hell, I'm in the mood for it, so what I care.. hehehe..
It's been about Internship and missing my friends on and on.. and yeah, that's what my life is revolving around right now. I do miss them, but I am moving on. I'm gonna meet some of them anyway this Friday for a whole day program at SMT Shah Alam. My boo is coming down to KL on my birthday (I'm so looking forward to it ~_^). And InsyaAllah, me and my other classmates will attend a lecturers' wedding on the following day at Melaka.
So lets change the topic. Why do I consider myself a dreamer? Because I dream a lot? (duh) hehehe..
Well, I used to be a really quiet girl. I don't have sisters and I was thought to stay indoors most of the time. So most of the time, I played on my own. When i think about it, my world actually revolved around books (and TV of course). I love stories, encyclopedias, myths, fantasies and fun facts about things around me. Once, I was even called as the walking dictionary, but that's a different story. Quite a nerd huh? But try as I might, I still love books. Any books. It's a seasonal thing. Like right now, I'm really enjoying reading back all the counseling theories, Counseling strategies and stuff. But I couldn't spend the whole time reading, there's still a lot of work to be done. And that's the whole point of reading, to apply it in real life.
Okay, back to the top. Why am I a dreamer? Why don't i call myself a reader? The answer; reading to me is a source, dreaming is a manifestation of what you think and feel, consciously and unconsciously towards that source. That's one of the reason I love reading fantasies and myths. It just feeds your imagination and gives you whole new perspective about your world.
Dreamers are mostly idealistics, which is a bit of a problem when it surpasses being realistic. So the best bet is, be in balance. Be a realist when your dealing with logic, and be an idealist when you have the chance to embrace your imagination. By the end of the day, you'll might be able explore a whole new world of your own and make your life even more colourful..
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Miss your faces..
Helloo..
It's been a long time since i post anything here. There's so many things to tell, but so little time to spare.
So far, my Internship is going well. It's just that we're a bit behind our schedule. Hopefully we could catch up and finish this whole thing in time.
Today I feel... sad. I miss my life in Uni. I miss my friends. I miss going to class. I miss the commotion my friends make in class, like 'pasar malam'. I miss seeing their faces. I miss seeing those smiles.I miss working with them, although it could be awfully stressful at times. But when I think about it, it's the most enjoyable time I had with them.
Last week, Friday 30th January, we had a meeting for all Interns in Semenanjung. Boy I was so happy meeting them! It's just like in class. Everybody was so cheerful, sharing stories and experiences. It's like we never parted. The bond was still so tight. It could have been merrier if all of us were there, but another half is in Sarawak.
And there's also Mama (Prof Madya Zuraidah). My most respected lecturer, now our internship supervisor. She's still the same. And I'm glad she is coz I miss her 'bebel' so much.. hehehe.. She gave us a more detailed guidance about our internship. Although some might think she's very rigid and strict, to me she's just being concern and caring about her children, just like a mother. And that's why I'm so comfortable to confide her for anything (but I'm still a bit scared sometimes..hehehe).
From the outside, most of us still look the same. only a little chubbier or skinnier..hehehe.. But when we share our experiences for the past one month, it made me realize we've grown up a lot. Each and everyone of us have our own story. Each and everyone have gone through different kinds of hurdles. Which eventually made us quite a different person inside. But in the same time, there's still something that remained the same: the warmth that we have when we're together..
One day, we will all go our seperate ways. One day, our path might not cross at all. But do remember, we've all come from the same place. And that place had mould us to become who we are today. And that place had also brought us together.
I really really miss all of you.. Can't wait to see you all again..
It's been a long time since i post anything here. There's so many things to tell, but so little time to spare.
So far, my Internship is going well. It's just that we're a bit behind our schedule. Hopefully we could catch up and finish this whole thing in time.
Today I feel... sad. I miss my life in Uni. I miss my friends. I miss going to class. I miss the commotion my friends make in class, like 'pasar malam'. I miss seeing their faces. I miss seeing those smiles.I miss working with them, although it could be awfully stressful at times. But when I think about it, it's the most enjoyable time I had with them.
Last week, Friday 30th January, we had a meeting for all Interns in Semenanjung. Boy I was so happy meeting them! It's just like in class. Everybody was so cheerful, sharing stories and experiences. It's like we never parted. The bond was still so tight. It could have been merrier if all of us were there, but another half is in Sarawak.
And there's also Mama (Prof Madya Zuraidah). My most respected lecturer, now our internship supervisor. She's still the same. And I'm glad she is coz I miss her 'bebel' so much.. hehehe.. She gave us a more detailed guidance about our internship. Although some might think she's very rigid and strict, to me she's just being concern and caring about her children, just like a mother. And that's why I'm so comfortable to confide her for anything (but I'm still a bit scared sometimes..hehehe).
From the outside, most of us still look the same. only a little chubbier or skinnier..hehehe.. But when we share our experiences for the past one month, it made me realize we've grown up a lot. Each and everyone of us have our own story. Each and everyone have gone through different kinds of hurdles. Which eventually made us quite a different person inside. But in the same time, there's still something that remained the same: the warmth that we have when we're together..
One day, we will all go our seperate ways. One day, our path might not cross at all. But do remember, we've all come from the same place. And that place had mould us to become who we are today. And that place had also brought us together.
I really really miss all of you.. Can't wait to see you all again..
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
~miss u much~
For my dearest boo, and for all who are in a long-distance relationship,
I dedicate this song to you..
I dedicate this song to you..
Apa agaknya khabarmu di sana?
Di sini ku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa seksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan
Hati terasa bagai tertinggal di situ
Meskipun tubuh dah jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti tahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada
Apa yang terdaya…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Jauh sekali hidup di sini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi ku selesa di sana
Tak sabar menantikan detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu
Apa yang termampu…
Bila terasa rindu
ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu
ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh
Terlintas di fikiran untuk meminggirkan saja
Semua pencarian di sini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar
Hrrmm...
Holla..
Now I'm already in my 3rd week of internship in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Klang. According to the plan, me and my partner Eja should have at least started our individual counseling sessions. Okay, so I did got a referral case from Hospital Supervisor, but I couldn't reach him these few days. Thus, my session is still pending till now.
From yesterday, me and Eja were distributing our counseling unit brochures and met most of the Supervisors, Sisters and Head of Departments in this hospital. Some were nice, some were ok, and there were someone who were just not really nice *sigh* I really appreciate those who aknowledge us and our work. I'm also happy to know that there are some who are eager to use our counseling service. But one incident yesterday made me stunned for a while and made my partner's mood went down the drain.
We were being our usual polite and nice self to this one person in charge. But all of the sudden she replied us very harshly and just walked away. As though the person was relly pissed off with us. I wonder what we did wrong...hurm..O_o Anyway, it's almost 5pm, I guessed that person had a rough day and we came at the wrong time.
Today when I met my supervisor and told her about what happened, she said she might know the person we're talking about. And that person wasn't really mad, it's just the way he/she is. o..k.. well, different people have different ways of treating others I guess. Hrm..
Overall, it has been quite hard for us here. we're trying our best to get clients, but it seems like it's going to take a while.. I really really REALLY hope we can go through this and finish up our internship.. :(
Now I'm already in my 3rd week of internship in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Klang. According to the plan, me and my partner Eja should have at least started our individual counseling sessions. Okay, so I did got a referral case from Hospital Supervisor, but I couldn't reach him these few days. Thus, my session is still pending till now.
From yesterday, me and Eja were distributing our counseling unit brochures and met most of the Supervisors, Sisters and Head of Departments in this hospital. Some were nice, some were ok, and there were someone who were just not really nice *sigh* I really appreciate those who aknowledge us and our work. I'm also happy to know that there are some who are eager to use our counseling service. But one incident yesterday made me stunned for a while and made my partner's mood went down the drain.
We were being our usual polite and nice self to this one person in charge. But all of the sudden she replied us very harshly and just walked away. As though the person was relly pissed off with us. I wonder what we did wrong...hurm..O_o Anyway, it's almost 5pm, I guessed that person had a rough day and we came at the wrong time.
Today when I met my supervisor and told her about what happened, she said she might know the person we're talking about. And that person wasn't really mad, it's just the way he/she is. o..k.. well, different people have different ways of treating others I guess. Hrm..
Overall, it has been quite hard for us here. we're trying our best to get clients, but it seems like it's going to take a while.. I really really REALLY hope we can go through this and finish up our internship.. :(
Monday, January 5, 2009
Reminescence
A lot had happened during last December. A lot of emotional roller-coasters; sadness, happiness, excitements and even grief. 3 1/2 years in Unimas had taught me many things and overtime, I've collected many memories. It was really hard to part with something you've grown so familiar with. The friendly people, the lush greenery, the studying environment, the slow-paced city (compared to KL) and of course the warm smiles of the people who are so close to my heart. I can't deny I had a very hard time to let go of these things and go back to where I belong. But somehow, deep down, I did felt belonged there. Most probably because I was so attached to my guy and his family..
Reality check, I still have to go home. There are many other things waiting for me at home. I gave myself three days to cry my eyes out and then I have to move on. Thank God I managed to control myself. Well, with a little help from someone of course. A week after i flew back to KL, my guy came spent some three days holiday with me. It was short, but it was the sweetest holiday I've ever had.
Now, I'm enjoying my stay at home. I'm so happy to be able to spend time with my mum, my dad and my brothers. I've already started my practical training as a counselor. It's a whole new environment here. A lot of work to be done too (sigh). Anyway, this the last semester and I'm going to go all out. To all my fellow counseling friends, I wish you all the best in everything you do ^_^. Toodles..
Reality check, I still have to go home. There are many other things waiting for me at home. I gave myself three days to cry my eyes out and then I have to move on. Thank God I managed to control myself. Well, with a little help from someone of course. A week after i flew back to KL, my guy came spent some three days holiday with me. It was short, but it was the sweetest holiday I've ever had.
Now, I'm enjoying my stay at home. I'm so happy to be able to spend time with my mum, my dad and my brothers. I've already started my practical training as a counselor. It's a whole new environment here. A lot of work to be done too (sigh). Anyway, this the last semester and I'm going to go all out. To all my fellow counseling friends, I wish you all the best in everything you do ^_^. Toodles..
Monday, December 1, 2008
Never Say Goodbye
One week has passed by. A week since I met all my beloved classmates as a whole. A week since we last laughed and talked, and cried with each other. A week since we last hugged and kissed each other goodbye.
One whole week, since I last said ‘I Love You’ to all of them..
It’s hard to describe how I feel these days. Whenever I remember all the memories I had with them, I felt sad and lonely. I felt sad because I miss them. I miss the hysterical laughs we had in class, the laughs that we even shared with our lecturers. I miss the grueling hours we spent, cramming our brains to the never-ending list of assignments throughout the semester. I miss the times we worked together; pouring all our energies, our hearts and souls to make every program a success. I miss the quality time we spent in class, listening attentively to lectures while bargaining ourselves to the’ sleeping devils’. I miss the camps we had, where we got to know each other even closer than before. I miss the quarrels and conflicts, though painful but it had made us grow. I miss the birthday wishes we sang our hearts out whenever any one of us had another year added to his/her life. I miss the announcements yelled out almost every time after class. I miss the annual dinners, when all of the sudden, all the girls became graceful swans and the guys became such handsome princes. I miss the smiles and hellos I received no matter where and when I met them.
Above all, I miss the warm and caring atmosphere I had when we were all together. The feelings that is so special and could never be felt with anyone else.
One whole week, since I last said ‘I Love You’ to all of them..
It’s hard to describe how I feel these days. Whenever I remember all the memories I had with them, I felt sad and lonely. I felt sad because I miss them. I miss the hysterical laughs we had in class, the laughs that we even shared with our lecturers. I miss the grueling hours we spent, cramming our brains to the never-ending list of assignments throughout the semester. I miss the times we worked together; pouring all our energies, our hearts and souls to make every program a success. I miss the quality time we spent in class, listening attentively to lectures while bargaining ourselves to the’ sleeping devils’. I miss the camps we had, where we got to know each other even closer than before. I miss the quarrels and conflicts, though painful but it had made us grow. I miss the birthday wishes we sang our hearts out whenever any one of us had another year added to his/her life. I miss the announcements yelled out almost every time after class. I miss the annual dinners, when all of the sudden, all the girls became graceful swans and the guys became such handsome princes. I miss the smiles and hellos I received no matter where and when I met them.
Above all, I miss the warm and caring atmosphere I had when we were all together. The feelings that is so special and could never be felt with anyone else.
It took quite some time for me to realize the precious gems in front of me. In my earlier years, I’ve been treasuring the gems that are far away from me. So immersed I was in my own thoughts that somehow I made a barrier for myself; a barrier that allows only certain people to enter my life. But as I grow as a counseling student, I began to appreciate people more. I began to learn more about each and every one of them. Along the way, it has been an amazing roller-coaster ride. I’ve met such amazing people. There are the talkative ones, the quiet ones, the funny ones, the serious ones, the achievers, the born leaders, the sweet ones, the strict ones, the active ones, and even the invisible ones. Though we are all different, I do believe we all share the same principle, “people are unique”. And to me, the uniqueness is what had bonded us together so well. From this bond, I’ve learned to love the valuable gems that are right in front of my eyes. And I’m glad, it was not too late for me to love these gems that I’ve been with for the past 3 ½ years.
Months ago, I’ve wished that time would past as slowly as it can. I wished that I would never have to leave this phase of my life; a phase that I can still have fun with my friends, I can still see their faces and hear their voices, a phase that I can be so comfortable with the people I meet. On the last day we had together during the Internship Camp, when we sat in a circle and disclose our feelings, I just wished that the time would pause for awhile. I wished, at least we’ll have the entire 24 hours to bid farewells and share the moment together. But of course, my wish did not come true. Half-heartedly I accepted the day as it is and made the full use of it.
Until today, sometimes I do shed tears when I remembered that moment. The moment when I get to look into each of their eyes and said I loved them so much. We may have said goodbye and we may not be able to meet each other again. But then, that’s the beauty of friendship. It could never be erased by goodbyes as it will always remains in ones heart, along with the memories that comes with it. As for me, I will never forget the precious moments I had with these wonderful friends of mine, for as long as I live.
To the entire Unimas Counseling Students batch 05/06, I wish you good luck and all the best for your Internship/ Courses. Hope to meet you all again someday. May you’ll have a wonderful and successful life ahead.
And to all my dear lecturers, thank you so much for your kindness, your patience and for all the knowledge that you have given me. Thank you so much for helping me to grow and become the person I am today. I really appreciate it.
May God Bless You All..
Friday, November 14, 2008
Something About Me..
Assalamualaikum dan hello to all.
Welcome to my blog. I'm Farah Dianti Abdul Rahizam, currently 22 years old and am still pursuing my Bachelors Degree in Counseling (Hons) in University of Malaysia Sarawak (Unimas). I'm living in Shah Alam, Selangor with my parents and two younger brothers. My dad is a marine engineer, now working as a CSR in Petronas. My mom is a travel consultant of her own travel agency, ITAERO travel. My brother, two years younger than me is now pursuing his Diploma in Mechanical Engineering. He has an ambition to become just like my dad, an engineer. My youngest brother, who is now 18, is taking up a course on catering and he dreams of becoming a chef.
I entered kindergarten since I was 4 years old in Tadika Sayangku, Shah Alam. My primary school was Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Seksyen 19, Shah Alam and I went to Sekolah Menengah Seksyen 19, Shah Alam for my secondary education until Form 3. After 12 years of studying in my hometown, I got the chance to study elsewhere. I went to Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar (Samura), Muar Johor during Form 4 and Form 5. After Form 5, I went to Kedah Matriculation College for a year. And as I’ve stated before, I’m now pursuing Counseling in UNIMAS, Sarawak. I guess I’m quite lucky to have the experience of traveling almost all around Malaysia for my studies. From west coast I went to the south, and then to the north, and now all the way across the sea to the East Malaysia.
I have a passion for Taekwondo and I’m now a 1st Dan Black Belt. I’m hoping to get my 2nd Dan soon if I could. I’m not much of a great fighter but I do love to join tournaments and kick some ass (or get my ass kicked >_<). Right now I’ve just finished my final semester in Unimas. Starting next year (which is my actual final semester in B.A. Counseling) I’ll be doing my internship nearby my hometown, in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang. I’ll no longer be a counseling student but a training counselor. It freaks me out a bit, but I’ll think I’ll manage (really hope so >_<).
Anyway, the past 3 ½ years in Unimas was great! I’ve learnt a lot and I’ve met a lot of great people. One of them is of course, my guy Hishammudin. He’s my course mate. To think about it, I didn’t really like this guy before because he likes to tease me. However, eventually, when I got to really know him better, I began accepting him and even enjoy his company a lot. He helped me to build my self esteem. He helped me to be more sociable. Whenever I’m down, he always pulls me up and be more positive. Although we are quite different from each other, we do compliment each other in many ways. It’s a unique chemistry I must say. But the bottom line is, he loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is.
I guess that’s all about me for my first entry. I’ll save the rest for later ~_^.
Toodles..
Welcome to my blog. I'm Farah Dianti Abdul Rahizam, currently 22 years old and am still pursuing my Bachelors Degree in Counseling (Hons) in University of Malaysia Sarawak (Unimas). I'm living in Shah Alam, Selangor with my parents and two younger brothers. My dad is a marine engineer, now working as a CSR in Petronas. My mom is a travel consultant of her own travel agency, ITAERO travel. My brother, two years younger than me is now pursuing his Diploma in Mechanical Engineering. He has an ambition to become just like my dad, an engineer. My youngest brother, who is now 18, is taking up a course on catering and he dreams of becoming a chef.I entered kindergarten since I was 4 years old in Tadika Sayangku, Shah Alam. My primary school was Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Seksyen 19, Shah Alam and I went to Sekolah Menengah Seksyen 19, Shah Alam for my secondary education until Form 3. After 12 years of studying in my hometown, I got the chance to study elsewhere. I went to Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar (Samura), Muar Johor during Form 4 and Form 5. After Form 5, I went to Kedah Matriculation College for a year. And as I’ve stated before, I’m now pursuing Counseling in UNIMAS, Sarawak. I guess I’m quite lucky to have the experience of traveling almost all around Malaysia for my studies. From west coast I went to the south, and then to the north, and now all the way across the sea to the East Malaysia.
I have a passion for Taekwondo and I’m now a 1st Dan Black Belt. I’m hoping to get my 2nd Dan soon if I could. I’m not much of a great fighter but I do love to join tournaments and kick some ass (or get my ass kicked >_<). Right now I’ve just finished my final semester in Unimas. Starting next year (which is my actual final semester in B.A. Counseling) I’ll be doing my internship nearby my hometown, in Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang. I’ll no longer be a counseling student but a training counselor. It freaks me out a bit, but I’ll think I’ll manage (really hope so >_<).
Anyway, the past 3 ½ years in Unimas was great! I’ve learnt a lot and I’ve met a lot of great people. One of them is of course, my guy Hishammudin. He’s my course mate. To think about it, I didn’t really like this guy before because he likes to tease me. However, eventually, when I got to really know him better, I began accepting him and even enjoy his company a lot. He helped me to build my self esteem. He helped me to be more sociable. Whenever I’m down, he always pulls me up and be more positive. Although we are quite different from each other, we do compliment each other in many ways. It’s a unique chemistry I must say. But the bottom line is, he loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is.I guess that’s all about me for my first entry. I’ll save the rest for later ~_^.
Toodles..
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